prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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am back again, for another round of updates.
i have been on my feet eversince monday that all i wanna do now is to take a break and bum at home. and it's only the first week of the holidays.

monday

got up and hit the gym and this time it was so diificult to actually drag my ass there. abstinence from exercise the past one mth cos of assignments and exams have done my body some damage. i've been lazier than ever and getting me started required a huge amt of effort but you know what? i overcame that and am now in my third day of gymmin this week. thank god.

so anyway, i did abt 1 1/2 of working out, headed back home to take a cold shower and went off to meet thamarai after a good one year. yea, it had been that long since i caught up with her and lunch that day was good. we went over to marche @ suntec and lunched from 3 to 6. haha, talking abt seat-hogging! but thankfully there weren't much pple ard and we had the whole place to ourselves. got alot of advice from her regarding joining a bank after my graduation since she's been with DBS for 2 years and now OCBC; it really isn't such a pretty picture after all and the pay, tho it is a substantial amt for a fresh grad but so is the workload and working hours. it cld apparently strecth till 10pm sometimes and the minus point is that you're not even paid over-time. grrr. slavery, i say! oh well, i've already decided abt wanting to join a bank after graduation so i think i'm gonna stick with it and be firm with my decision. after all, like what guna always says - " tell me which job isn't tough? they all have their own cons. it's really just a matter of how you work ard it diligently". but of course, who else cld have said it better than the workaholic himself. hmpf.

and with other random gossips and updates the short but very pleasant date with thamarai ended and i rushed off to vivocity for yet another date with uma and ponvili. i was running late and tearing my sandals halfway while walking towards cityhall mrt station really didn't help. thank god for a charles & keith that was ard, i managed to get myself another pair of sandal (which was the exact same pair as the one i just tore). yes, i told you i can't take very well to changes. haha.

and so i reached vivo city a bit later @6.15pm. phew, that was only a good 15 min late.
surprisingly the threesome date ended up with more people as soon as i got there. lavanya happened to join us and so did fabian and his fellow running mate, kumar who happened to be there as well. it's really weird how everyone knows everyone in the indian community. like how i got to know fabs thru jay and fabs knew ponvili cos it's jay's gf and so uma and lavanya get to know him too and before you know it, we're all one big happy family. tsk, tsk. i seriously think that the indian community is getting way too connected for my own liking. it's freaky, you nvr know who might be 'discussing' abt you and where.

anyway, the most disappointing event of that day was bumping into senthil (the ex bf) and his girlfriend @ vivo! and to think that was the LAST thing on earth i wanted and it just HAD to happen to me. and what's worse is that it had to happen when both of us just had a fight a few weeks back and were not on talking terms! i really do not understand why evil things happen only to me.. sigh. the feeling sucked, seeing them so happy together, seeing another person in the position i used to be in once. my heart was wrenching and i felt sick for a moment and tears were abt to spill out of my eyes but i forced them back. it was only then that i realised that the break-up was still so raw. come february, it'll be 2 years since we've parted and gone our separate ways yet the pain still remains, buried deep inside the heart. it feels fucked up and tho i'm typin this entry a good 5 days later, everything still seem so fresh in my mind.

we parted on bad terms, made up and promised to remain best friends along the way, got used to the fact that we now belong to different people, share our present r'ship woes, fight abt it sometimes cos either one of us cld have been too insensitive and revealed a tad too much that the other party really didn't need to know, hang up the phone in jealousy, pretended to be ok when listening to the new r'ship stories and giving advice to one another, ignoring each other for days just to know that the other party is hurting and we simply feel good to learn abt it..

why do senthil and i do it, i never understand but a part of me tells me that i was right - i'll never get over him completely even if years pass and that i'll always love him tho i may not be IN love with him anymore and for as long as we keep in touch/remain as friends i'll never stop being jealous of his girlfriends and neither will he. so today, i have come to terms that senthil will affect me, is affecting me and will continue to affect me with his actions even in the future and there is really nothing much i can do to stop it. and it sucks that he's not called for a good 2 weeks (which is the longest thus far after our break-up) and that i had to see him when we were not on good terms and walk away pretending not to know one another when we clearly saw each other, with his gf by his side throwing daggers at my face with her eyes. i really wish i cld gorge them out! argh!

someone pls tell me why i'm feeling this way. i'm supposed to be truly, madly, deeply in love with my boyfriend and no other male specimen was supposed to affect my mind!! this really feels like crap!

oh well, despite all that i still had fun on tuesday with uma, ponvili, fabs, kumar and lavanya. dinner at thai express was yummy, shopping was tiresome cos the place was so huge and by the time we walked abt a quarter of that place we were exhausted, scenic views were breathtaking at night, photo taking sessions were fun as usual and simply talking at the rooftop was even more fun. more such outings, i anticipate.

tuesday was good. but it cld have been better if not for some people.
but then again, life's always unfair.

Saturday, November 18, 2006
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