prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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cheers to another friday! yay! i love fridays for 2 reasons - one, because i've got no classes on that day and two, simply because it's the end of that tiresome week. heh.

something really bitter and nasty happened on wednesday. remember i mentioned i stopped tutoring for one of my tuition kid, kevin? well, his parents owe me outstanding tuition fees of $360 and were supposed to pay in mid-august itself. but due to some unexplainable reasons, the father told me to bear with him a little longer and that'll he'll pay up by the 5th of this month (sept). not wanting to seem like some unreasonable, greedy person i said ok. and the 5th came but there was no message or call from him regarding the payment so i messaged the wife (since i usually alias only with her). that bloody woman totally disregarded my sms, refused to pick up my calls and neither did she return back the ones she missed. total moron. typical indian dickhead metality. shying away from payment, pretending to be ignorant, thinking that after awhile i'll get sick of asking them to pay and give up. well, too bad for those assholes i'm not going to stop till i get my pay. the one i spent time travelling, utilizing my energy after a hard day at sch, the one i sacrifice my social life for to earn. no way. i have had enough of these disgusting indian families cheating me off my money.

and so the following day, i messaged her back again this time a little more firmly but definitely not rudely.

me: hi. i am assuming you do not have a habit of replying back to messages? i asked abt my outstanding fees. i was told by your husband that it'll be settled by the 5th and today is already the 6th but there has been no calls nor msg from either one of you. maybe the least you cld do out of basic courtesy is to inform me instead of being ignorant. if u can't transfer it to my acct as i said yesterday in my message, i can come over to collect my pay. thank you.

reply: (from the wife's hp number) hello, i heard u said my wife has got no manners. can u pls mind your words. don't need to be so rude. i will pay you on the 9th. next time, you better be more courteous. it's better for you. and how can my wife message you when i was having her hp? so don't anyhow say.

that's it. such a fucking asshole. i was totally fuming mad. here you are, owing someone 2 freaking months of outstanding tuition fees and you talk as though i owed u a bloody living! wa lau, preposterous!!! and when the hell did i say his moron of a wife was rude, i merely stated that she shld have called out of courtesy. pig face! argh! and so i retaliated, rather annoyed this time ard. that dog asked for it, i swear!

me: excuse me! mind your words and don't you use such language with me. i'm not your wife nor do u have any rights over me. pls re-read my message throughly and absorb the meaning before you throw ur words. i am assuming u have a rather weak grasp of the english language cos u seem to have misunderstood my meaning. anyway, i messaged ur wife last night. not today when u are having her phone and even if u are having it, aren't u her husband? don't u back home to her? i am sure u wld have conveyed the message. if u don't wanna deal with me, by all means just pass the money to my aunty (they are neighbours with my aunt) and i'll take it from her. i don't think i want to have anything to do with you or your family ever!

reply: firstly, stop lying. you never messaged my wife regarding the pay. and secondly, you need not have doubts if i am her husband. i am. don't manipulate the messages and stop asking me to reread my english. i know what i sent you and what i read. it's not as though i am going to run away with your money. i will just give it to u when i feel like it (such a fucker, right?) and look here, i am not the ignorant type!!

ok, by this time i've already snapped. not being able to take it any longer, i called my dad. i had already told him abt this rather disgusting family before and how i stopped tuition because something abt their house gave me this sleazy vibes and everytime i went over, there were some strange looking men in the house with tattoos all over which majorly freaked me out. anyway, i told dad what happened from the start and dad asked me to stop messaging him and ask me to tell that fellow to call dad instead. he'll settle it for me. and so i did but not before i said some nasty things further. i had to satisfy my anger, didn't i?

me: loser, get a life. aren't you ashamed of youself? you are so childish. you're a 30-0dd year old man and here you are arguing with a 22 yr old student. haha, so freaking childish! and for your information, do u think i seriously care if u're her husband or if she is your wife or if the both of you are having an affair? that's none of my bloody business! and look here, i do not gain anything by lying that i messaged you regarding the pay. i think you and your family are a bunch of liars, maybe that's why you think that everyone else ard are as low-lying as you. sadly, i am bred in a much dignified manner than you thus i'm very sorry to have disappointed you! anyway, i have told my dad abt your nonsense and he has asked me to stop aliasing with you. if you have the guts, call him. he'll settle the matter with you. this is is number 9*******. and if u dare to message another time, u be assured that'll lodge a complaint against you for harrasment. don't try me and don't think u'll intimidate me because u're older. good bye!

argh, just typing the incident out makes my blood boil!! and that was it. that tamilan dickhead didn't msg me back but had apparently called dad. dad told me that he promised to pay me by the 9th ad he actually apologised to dad for calling me a liar and all cos after all, the msg that i sent him was stored in my sent items. who was he kidding?! i dun know exactly how it went cos dad didn't say much but one thing he did - "sajeetha, this is life. there are so many con-man out there and though it's been a bitter experience, i'm glad u've come across such things cos it'll make u realise that life isn't all that fair and just. isn't all that easy. this is only one incident. there is so much more in life to learn".

how right, he was. this incident was really a culture-shock to me, how people twist and turn their words, try to cheat people and can even act as though they are in the right when they are absolutely not. not a single ounce of integrity.

but that was not what i wanted to highlight in this entry. the fact that i run to my dad each time i had a problem, it made me think. you see how he's my pillar of strength. dad is the only one i know who will NEVER let me down, NEVER let me stumble and even if i did, he'll be there to pick me up. and he's the one man i know will always be there for me and it's only because of him that i even have the courage to embrace life and it's challenges cos at the back of my heart and mind i know that he'll be there to catch me when i fall. like u know, he's my strength. he always has the answers. i really don't know how to put it explicitly in words but i'm sure you get my point. but what scares me, when he is gone one day, what happens then?

my whole world will be crushed. and sometimes i think i'll literally die the next moment, he leaves the world. i cannot imagine a life w/o him. and that's the ultimate truth. maybe my future husband might try and take his place but the problem is, i don't want anyone to take his place nor will i allow anyone to. it's dad and only dad who can be my special man.

this sucks. i am crying as i write this post. i don't even know why. all i know is - my dad. my knight in shining armour.

Friday, September 08, 2006
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