prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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you and me, things seem like they're almost normal btw us yet i know that they aren't.
and i'm sure u feel it too.
u try and be normal and make things feel like how they were used to be but it's just not the
same and i can't help but feel terrible.

if u have decided to let bygones be bygones, to 'forgive' me and let things get back to normal,
i'd just want you to know that i don't want that nor do i need that.
i have got my pride. i have got my dignity.
i'm not going to allow myself to be 'forgiven' for something i never did.
i'm not going to compromise on my principles just so that things will be what they used to be.
i'm not going to get blamed unneccesarily.

at times, i feel that ignorance and avoidance is probably the best way to deal with the matter.
just let things be and pretend that all is fine but my conscience won't allow me to.
cos deep down, no matter how normal you pretend to be, i know that at the back of your heart and mind, you believe that i betrayed you.

and seriously, you think that makes me feel good?
when a friend you held so dear harbours such thoughts about you?
no.
i feel like crap, if that's what you want to know.

sigh.
all i wish is for you to ask me.
confront.
then i can explain everything to you.
if you want, that is.
i'm exhausted with these mind games. really tired.

i.miss.you.
i.miss.us.
i.miss.everything.abt.us.

i.doubt.i.can.say.the.same.for.you.though.
s.i.g.h.

Thursday, August 10, 2006
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