prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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phew! that was a busy week! not that it's not normal, but it has been busier than busy and i'm really relieved it's the end of the week! for me at least, since i officially do not have classes on fridays.

hmm, in the midst of stress i can't really remember what's taken place the last few days. my mind's in a fuzz, all cloudy and unable to generate any thoughts at all. i'm thinking my brain has collapsed. hah. exaggerated, i can be.

nothing much has happened except that now i've got one tuition kid lesser to teach. yep, i've dropped one and am left with three more. am intending to drop another and just stick with 2 kids. i'm sick of running ard all over singapore, trying to educate kids for a rather meagre amount of money. teaching kids from indian familes can be very taxing - they NEVER pay on time. well, at least most of them. trust me, i know. furthermore, i really need to concentrate on my academics. what dad said to me on tuesday, while dropping me off for tuition made a hell lot of sense - " i don't see why you're exhausting yourself, running from one corner to another, using up your precious time teaching tuition for a small sum of money and neglecting your studies, which is going to present you with a degree that will bring in money worth thousands. why compromise a rather important part of your life for a small exchange?"

no, i am a disciplined student in case you thought otherwise. i attend 90% of all my lectures unless there is a dire need to do otherwise. i do everything that is required of me and am motivated to study but what dad means is that attending school alone isn't enough. slogging like mad during assignments alone isn't sufficient. what he thinks i need to do is, revise consistently every day after school. you know, self study? which apparently, i'm not in a state to do because of my tight schedule. i thought about it long and hard. he made perfect sense. he always does anyway and thus the reason of terminating the tuition.

this month's one helluva month. 3 assignments due, a quiz and a test. leadership and management is sorta completed so that leaves me with marketing and human resource. marketing too is well on the way of completion and so this leaves me with human resource. it's time to work on that. the quiz, i've told myself that i'll start studying on monday and the test, that'll too be done. at least i've done some planning and i think that's quite ok for a start. now the challenge is in sticking by it. i can do that. i think. hah.

anyway, enough abt sch. my r'ship has been rather rocky the past few days. i dun even know where to start. sigh.. i think growing up is really hard to do. i try and tell myself that it'll blow over soon and i will be able to accept certain things in life but i just can't seem to. it really doesn't help when the both of us are so damn busy. argh. it's like he's never there when i need him cos he's so absorbed in his work and studies. i'm busy too but why is it that i always manage to spare some time for you? i feel so unimportant. i know i'm not supposed to feel that way and it's not true at all but you know, sometimes you just can't help it. i'm trying, really hard to understand but it's not going anywhere....

to think i'm not even seeing you on my birthday! and you don't even find it necessary to see me a day earlier. and you say i'm important, yea right! actions speak louder than words mister, in case you haven't realised. it's alright.. in time to come, i probably won't even care anymore if special occasions are spent with you or not. after all, you're too BUSY even for yourself. i swear even the president isn't half as busy as you but then again i forgot. you're the president's secretary aren't you since secretaries are always busier than the bosses. whatever.

vicky, thank you for making a date out with me on friday. at least i'm important to someone. what wld i do without you? maybe, we should get attached? what do you think? it'll make life alot more easier to live..

and kamini, come back soon! we need some of your 'ragale' to get us through the day!

sigh....

Thursday, August 24, 2006
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