prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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i have got the sudden urge to get married.

yes, that's right.

m.a.r.r.y.

i've always wanted to get married, give birth to an entire football team and spend the rest of my life with my husband running after them. and then i deleted the entire idea away from my mind the moment my relationship with senthil ended. and with guna, the feeling never came, maybe because my hopes and dreams had been dashed once and i was just too afraid to be disappointed again or maybe because being together with someone for only 6 mths and ideas of marriage simple didn't gel. u know, it's like ridiculous or something?

until last night.

after my shopping spree with anitha and a few others we met along the way, i went for my tuition afterwhich guna came to send me back home. and that's where it all started. we ran into a friend of his. he was 21, married and had a kid of 13mths. maybe it was common for malays to get married quite young, maybe it was for reasons tt i'm assuming or for reasons as simple as love but whatever the reason was, really didn't matter last night as i witnessed the most beautiful scence with my very own eyes. there he was, the guy holding on to the pram and his wife (a very pretty looking malay girl, ard our age) playing with their daughter (one of the cutest kid i've seen) in the playground near admiralty mrt station and what tugged at my heartstrings was the fact that they seemed so happy. and contented. and for a moment i wish i too was like them.

i've always been ambitious. i needed to get a house of my own, a car, earn big money, establish a career, be a somebody before i thought of settling down with a family but last night, i was wondering if the above mentioned are necessary for a happy life. does monetary security equate to happiness? or wld being with the one you love and building a home still bring you happiness and contentent even if you didn't have the 5Cs? and i realised that the answer varies among different individuals. at the end of the day, it depends on what type of person you are and what u value more - the materialistic aspects of life or the finer things in life like family bonds, relationships and love. many of which u can't measure.

so really, what is ur take?

u know, i thought i knew what i wanted all along but really, a simple incident like yesterday made me realise that i am still undecided. i am still not sure of what i want. and what i'd always thought was essential for a successful life wasn't exactly right but like i've said, it's all very subjective and depends on each individual but whatever it is, i hope we make the right choices.

life. it has a funny way of turning out, doesn' it?

p/s: not only did seeing the happily married couple last night make me think, i'm guessing it made guna reflect back on a lot of things too. he is one of those who never plans for anything too far out in the future for the fear of disappointment and so u wld have guessed that he never spoke abt marriage btw us at any one point of time in this 6 mths but yesterday he asked - "hey, don't u think we shld get married too? i think it'll be fun. let's do it " -

yes, it sounds really funny that way he put it, like marriage is such a simple thing but to think tt he even voiced it out, that made me smile so wide in which he replied "enna sirippu, paruppu maathiri?" wa lau, so anti-climax i tell you. but i know abt him, he was probably feeling a tad too shy and just had to say something so dumb to lighten the atmosphere.

either way, he is turning out to be a fine, young man. one, i'm learning to love beyond my imagination.

Thursday, August 03, 2006
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