prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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it's raining and i'm simply too lazy to get my fat ass up for tuition so i'm resorting to sitting on my bed and typing yet another entry.

anyway, did i mention that i met up with senthil last friday for lunch? it was his 23rd birthday and we made plans to meet up for a couple of hours before he continues with other plans. the night before we had a very emotional conversation which brought me back to where we started. he still very much has the ability to make me laugh and cry, and to make me wanna run back to him. but i'm not going to stumble this time ard. not because i don't want to but because i can't. too much has happened. isn't it so sad? don't get me wrong. i'm not settling for guna. i love him but the fact that i will never love him as much as i loved senthil, will remain in time to come. it' a good yr and a half ever since our breakup but nothing much has changed. old habits dies hard, don't they? i'm a living example.

lunch was at 'essential brew' and dessert over at 'haagen daaz'. it was probably the best lunch i've had in months. with senthil, everything seems so light and easy. so carefree and happy but it's ironic how i hardly felt tt way when we were in a relationship.

senthil has changed in a lot of ways. some for the better and some for the worse. he has become more patient these days. alot wiser as well and maybe even matured. but then again, he always was. he remains hilarious though but he smokes now. like a chimney and it was quite heartbreaking to see him like that. oh well, that's not for me to worry abt anymore. it's up to his gf. in a very subtle sorta way, i am jealous of her and i secretly wish that they'll not work out but i know i'm dreaming. well, u can't blame me. after all, he was my first love and of 5 years. it's really not easy letting go of everything when the both of us are still very much a part of each other's lives.

before i knew it, it was time to go. the hug before he left, said a lot of things that needn't be mentioned out loud. in my heart i knew that the bond we share, it'll remain for a long, long time and senthil will always be a person i cherish and treasure.

- relationships die, love doesn't -

Thursday, June 01, 2006
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