prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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Hmmm... it just hit upon me that the older you get, the more serious stuff u start to think about. Right after I submitted my previous entry, Guna called. And we spoke about the plans I had for my future; abt my travelling desires, the need to live on the other side of the globe before I decide if Singapore is where I want to spend the rest of my life; my job, the way I want to live, the type of house I want to live in, the type of lifestyle which'll suit me best, the type of education I want to give my kids, the way I want to bring up my kids etc.

I kept going on and on and all he did was to keep silent. But me being the ignorant me, mistook his silence for intent listening. But what I failed to realise was that it bugged him that I didn't want to settle for a 'normal' life and instead wanted 'big' things. Ok, I don't know if it bugged him but he was uncomfrotable cos he was afraid he couldn't exactly provide me with what I wanted. Basically, I wanted to live the exactly the way my dad has brought both my sister and I up. Like princesses maybe? Ok maybe not, but almost like princesses.

Now that's a crime? What's wrong with that? And the weirdest part is, I didn't ask him to provide those luxuries for me. I'd be capable enough to do that myself.

It's funny why he doesn't want to travel abroad, experience the other side of life, see new things, aim for the sky but instead is ok with settling for what he has. Maybe it's the way we are brought up. We come from different lifestyles; we've been exposed to very different ways of life. My dad has always taught us to aim far, to aim big and not settle for the next best thing but only THE BEST while he's been taught to be contented with what he has. Not that's it's that bad but will that become an issue in the future should we decide to get married and have kids? I might want to buy a condo while he's be contented with a flat. I'd want to put my children in elite schools (like RGPS, where I came from), while he'd be ok with a neighbourhood school.
Sheesh, I don't know but I'm afraid our conflicting ideas might affect our future together.

I am NOT saying that people who live in a flat are any poorer or kids who come from neighbourhood schools are any worse. I came from a neighbourhood secondary school myself but is it so wrong to want to give both ourselves and our kids a better life?

I come from a upper middle-class family. Would it make any sense if I settle for something lower than that in the future. Of course not! Would anyone in the right mind, settle for second best when they've already gotten the best? I reckon not, cos it's only logical that one strives to become better than what they are instead of becoming worse.Don't I make sense? My parents have given us EVERYTHING we've ever wanted and there is nothing they've deprieved us of. Good education, a good home with conducive, happy environment, luxuries, overseas vacations while monitoring our progress, morals, values and discipline at the same time. I'd say both my sister and I have turned out much better than alot of young, teenaged girls out there who have their lives wasted away. Those drop-outs, drug abusers and what-not?

And that is exactly how I want my kids to be brought up; the way I was brought up, in a happy, healthy way. The best way possible (at least to me). And I want to live like that for the rest of my life as well. Even if it means working my butt off to afford that lifestyle.

So now, I've got to make him understand my point; which he will.

Friday, May 05, 2006
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