prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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As of now, 2 papers are over and I'm left with one more on Monday but somehow it's not making me feel any better cos now, I start worrying abt how I wld have fared! Gosh, when will this slavery to the education system ever end?! I have decided. My education stops here, yes it does. A degree is sufficient enough for me and no way in hell am I gonna pursue a masters. My dad will not have his way. It's really my life and I dictate it!

I've been thinking, thinking way more that I usually do. I'm 22 yrs old and what have I achieved? Nothing. Ok, maybe besides passing my PSLE, 'O' Levels and finally getting a Diploma nothing much that I'm proud of. And when I say achievment, I don't mean academically. I want to do something, go places, climb mountains, live a little, live my life to the fullest. And panic grips at me when I think abt not having a chance, an opportunity to fulfil these dreams before I die. I have to do something about it, and it should be right away. But what? how? Those are the difficult questions.

Life is all about taking chances or so I believe. Otherwise, I'll end up living like everyone else. Routined-working machines in a concrete jungle like Singapore. Okay, maybe I'm exaggrating, still, it's not the life for me yet, not when I might have a chance to experience life in a different country while most people can only dream about it. Money isn't a problem cos I know that dad will be willing to sponsor me for it but that's the thing; I wanna do this for myself by myself, with my own money. Perhaps I would enjoy it, perhaps not. I wouldn't know unless I took a chance. I need to plan my life so that I live it the way I want to, not the way people want me to and for that I'd do everything. We only live once, why not make the best out of it?

So again, I've decided. Right after I finish my degree in July 07, I'm gonna be working for a year to raise money for my trip. Then I'll take another year off to realise my dream - to travel to differents part of Europe. I'll work there if I have to, to earn abit more cash before I embark on my journey. I did some research and found out that one can apply for a UK working holiday visa where people are allowed to work part-time while remaining in the UK for 2 years. Just what I need. I am not sure how long the conversion process will take but I know I am going to do it.

This is a life-long dream of mine and I'm hoping to realise it! I know I'll be scared shitless but I also know that if I don't do it, I will most definitely regret it. New environment, new people, new experiences, new challenges and of course, a whole new perspective on life! When i'm 60 and sagging all over, I would like to recall the time I took a leap in life and I may have landed ungracefully but made it anyway. This is how I want to remember my life...

Friday, May 05, 2006
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