prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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Yay! i have just completed 2 successful days of my exercise regime and i am feeling G-O-O-D! both vicky and i made a promise to go on a full fledged exercise regime for at least 2 mths and see what desired results the action brings about and i'm glad that we've even got started. i mean, after all getiing started is the hardest thing to do and we have successfully overcome that.

monday was spent jogging a good 2.4 km (i know, i know it's not a big deal but at least it's a start). we used ngee ann's track and gg back to school was like taking a trip down memory lane. canteen 1's chicken rice, atrium's sandwiches, co-ops and what not. i still haven't gotten the 'sense of belonging' feel in SIM, as yet. maybe i'll never. hmmm..

and today was yet another productive day. we hit the gym for an hr and swam for another. awesome. we're on the right track and i really hope i'll have the willpower to continue with it. this hols, i am determined to achieve something and weight loss will be it. i also wanna cultivate good habits like sleeping early, resting my eyes after a long time of staring straight into the comp and also skin care. as they say, there are no ugly women, only lazy ones and i think it's time i take some care in the way i look. let's see where i go.

right, i am gg back to watch the american idol finals now. they're back from commercial. till later.. muacks!

Wednesday, May 24, 2006
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yes, i'm back. before i disappear for some time again. i rememeber, in my earlier posts that i promised to update you guys on all that had happened before my exams till now but really, i can't recall that much of the events tt took place and even if i do, i might be missing out on a whole lot of details. what the heck? so i thought i'd just write from where i left off.

exams and presentations are ALL FINALLY OVER! thank god for that! this technically means the hols are here but then again, it isn't really holidays for me. i'm still gg back and forth to school since i'm tied down with council commitments. but hey, the last meeting went quite well and i thought the new head, agacia, is really, really, really good at leading the team. this might be a new start for edits, i guess.

so what have i been up to from april till now? hmmm, let me recall -

070406 - we celebrated retna's 21st in dad's restaurant.

080406 - both dad and sis celebrated their 50th and 19th together, in our place.

110406 - pretty much hung out with shant the entire day and yay! she drove me all ard singapore, which i thought was pretty awesome. having friends who drive, is definitely a plus point. heh.

120406 - finally met up with anitha, punitha, wickyboy, sivaram and slut after what seemed like eons. had good fun and good food. lol.

150406 - mummy dearest turned 45. went out for dinner.

220406 - retna's birthday chalet.

230406 - guna and i turn a good 100 days together. yay!

250406 - the much dreaded exams had begun. hrm paper.

020506 - celebrated guna's 21st in sentosa. got him an i-pod nano with his name engraved and dinner was in a boat. awesome day. i hope he liked it though.

040506 - the KILLER paper. organisation, theory and design. eeek!!

060506 - the twins, jay and vijay's 21st birthday chalet. kamini flew back from aussie as well. her granny passed away.

080506 - and finally the last paper of the semester. prices and market. now we were left with just ONE more presentation to go and we'll be done for the sem.

110506 - breakfast in sentosa with kamini and vicky. now that is what i call, madness. haha. all in the name of fun and living life to the fullest yea?

150506 - i dunno whether i dread this day or loved this day but i met a certain someone and things shldn't have gone the way they did. oh well, it happened and i'm coping so wth right? neway, both vicky and i met varman, raj, jay, sashi and sasi for dinner in town. afterwhich, we followed varman to alter his tatoo design and shopped for shasi's birthday clothes. i must admit, having guy friends who pamper you and make you feel like princesses feels good.and cared for. haha.

180506 - went to SENTOSA with my precious SIM gang. had absolute fun kayaking and taking awesome pictures! can't wait for another outing! *hint hint*

190506 - my fabulous dinner date with wicky boy over at dad's restaurant. great dinner with great company.

210506 - spent the whole day out with my sister love. bonding with the precious one while shopping, eating and taking , yes, without a doubt NEOPRINTS!

230506 - went to sentosa again (hee) to help wicky boy set up his plans to surprise Jasmi. it is their one year anniversary and he bought her a diamond ring worth $1200. talk abt romantic! sigh, why did i have to have best friends who were so darn sweet? it just makes me not wanna settle for a bf, who'll be nothing lesser than that. brought vicky along with me too.

foo! tt pretty much sums the stuffs i've been tied down to and busy with. wad a busy, busy gal i am. hee! k, gotta go now. so ta!

Tuesday, May 23, 2006
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Hmmm... it just hit upon me that the older you get, the more serious stuff u start to think about. Right after I submitted my previous entry, Guna called. And we spoke about the plans I had for my future; abt my travelling desires, the need to live on the other side of the globe before I decide if Singapore is where I want to spend the rest of my life; my job, the way I want to live, the type of house I want to live in, the type of lifestyle which'll suit me best, the type of education I want to give my kids, the way I want to bring up my kids etc.

I kept going on and on and all he did was to keep silent. But me being the ignorant me, mistook his silence for intent listening. But what I failed to realise was that it bugged him that I didn't want to settle for a 'normal' life and instead wanted 'big' things. Ok, I don't know if it bugged him but he was uncomfrotable cos he was afraid he couldn't exactly provide me with what I wanted. Basically, I wanted to live the exactly the way my dad has brought both my sister and I up. Like princesses maybe? Ok maybe not, but almost like princesses.

Now that's a crime? What's wrong with that? And the weirdest part is, I didn't ask him to provide those luxuries for me. I'd be capable enough to do that myself.

It's funny why he doesn't want to travel abroad, experience the other side of life, see new things, aim for the sky but instead is ok with settling for what he has. Maybe it's the way we are brought up. We come from different lifestyles; we've been exposed to very different ways of life. My dad has always taught us to aim far, to aim big and not settle for the next best thing but only THE BEST while he's been taught to be contented with what he has. Not that's it's that bad but will that become an issue in the future should we decide to get married and have kids? I might want to buy a condo while he's be contented with a flat. I'd want to put my children in elite schools (like RGPS, where I came from), while he'd be ok with a neighbourhood school.
Sheesh, I don't know but I'm afraid our conflicting ideas might affect our future together.

I am NOT saying that people who live in a flat are any poorer or kids who come from neighbourhood schools are any worse. I came from a neighbourhood secondary school myself but is it so wrong to want to give both ourselves and our kids a better life?

I come from a upper middle-class family. Would it make any sense if I settle for something lower than that in the future. Of course not! Would anyone in the right mind, settle for second best when they've already gotten the best? I reckon not, cos it's only logical that one strives to become better than what they are instead of becoming worse.Don't I make sense? My parents have given us EVERYTHING we've ever wanted and there is nothing they've deprieved us of. Good education, a good home with conducive, happy environment, luxuries, overseas vacations while monitoring our progress, morals, values and discipline at the same time. I'd say both my sister and I have turned out much better than alot of young, teenaged girls out there who have their lives wasted away. Those drop-outs, drug abusers and what-not?

And that is exactly how I want my kids to be brought up; the way I was brought up, in a happy, healthy way. The best way possible (at least to me). And I want to live like that for the rest of my life as well. Even if it means working my butt off to afford that lifestyle.

So now, I've got to make him understand my point; which he will.

Friday, May 05, 2006
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As of now, 2 papers are over and I'm left with one more on Monday but somehow it's not making me feel any better cos now, I start worrying abt how I wld have fared! Gosh, when will this slavery to the education system ever end?! I have decided. My education stops here, yes it does. A degree is sufficient enough for me and no way in hell am I gonna pursue a masters. My dad will not have his way. It's really my life and I dictate it!

I've been thinking, thinking way more that I usually do. I'm 22 yrs old and what have I achieved? Nothing. Ok, maybe besides passing my PSLE, 'O' Levels and finally getting a Diploma nothing much that I'm proud of. And when I say achievment, I don't mean academically. I want to do something, go places, climb mountains, live a little, live my life to the fullest. And panic grips at me when I think abt not having a chance, an opportunity to fulfil these dreams before I die. I have to do something about it, and it should be right away. But what? how? Those are the difficult questions.

Life is all about taking chances or so I believe. Otherwise, I'll end up living like everyone else. Routined-working machines in a concrete jungle like Singapore. Okay, maybe I'm exaggrating, still, it's not the life for me yet, not when I might have a chance to experience life in a different country while most people can only dream about it. Money isn't a problem cos I know that dad will be willing to sponsor me for it but that's the thing; I wanna do this for myself by myself, with my own money. Perhaps I would enjoy it, perhaps not. I wouldn't know unless I took a chance. I need to plan my life so that I live it the way I want to, not the way people want me to and for that I'd do everything. We only live once, why not make the best out of it?

So again, I've decided. Right after I finish my degree in July 07, I'm gonna be working for a year to raise money for my trip. Then I'll take another year off to realise my dream - to travel to differents part of Europe. I'll work there if I have to, to earn abit more cash before I embark on my journey. I did some research and found out that one can apply for a UK working holiday visa where people are allowed to work part-time while remaining in the UK for 2 years. Just what I need. I am not sure how long the conversion process will take but I know I am going to do it.

This is a life-long dream of mine and I'm hoping to realise it! I know I'll be scared shitless but I also know that if I don't do it, I will most definitely regret it. New environment, new people, new experiences, new challenges and of course, a whole new perspective on life! When i'm 60 and sagging all over, I would like to recall the time I took a leap in life and I may have landed ungracefully but made it anyway. This is how I want to remember my life...

Friday, May 05, 2006
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