prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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Saturday - 04.06.2006

The weekend was spent with Guna and this is prolly the first time it's happened. I don't usually go out on a Sunday or at least try not make any plans on that day. It's solely reserved for some quality time with the family and only the family alone but this week was an exception.
The last time I saw Guna for the week that passed was the previous week's Saturday (got ya all confused?). The means it's been a whole week since I saw him and on Thursday, I received a sms which went - " I dunno if you feel it, but I do and I feel like I'm losing you. Not the way u perceive it but it's like you're not there. I know you're caught up with your handful of commitments and that I shld respect you on that but at the tiny corner of my heart, I can't help but wonder when I'll see you again. I miss you!"

Oooooooook, it was only then that it hit upon me! In my attempt to keep up with all my other commitments, I had neglected my boyfriend. One who was nice enough not to complain. But that has always been the case with me. When it came to prioritizing my life, boyfriends were never at the top of the list even though they are an integral part of my life. It really doesn't mean that I love him any lesser; it simply means that love is just a part of my life. It doesn't necessarily make up my whole life!

And I've told him that too and of course, he agrees with it whole heartedly. In fact, the both of us have always been busy with our own activities and had came to a mutual agreement that we'll meet up only when all of our other personal commitments have been fulfilled, but I guess the situation doesn't apply when one party becomes busier than the other and feels neglected by his/her other half.

Then I ask myself - Isn't he my commitment too? If so, then why do I not sense the need or the urgency to keep my obligations with him? The answer? Is simple; I take him for granted, which is something that I SO should not be doing! So to make up for all the lost time and for being a jack-ass gf I got up at 8am on Saturday, bought breakfast from Mac and took a cab down to his place. And I believe it made his day cos the look of surprise and tender love in his eyes, gave him away. I was glad that I was the reason for his smile for he is a reason for many of mine.

After breakfast, we met up with Ratna and Dinesh ( a couple friend of Guna's. Nice people). Did some shopping, hung ard for awhile, had dinner over a really hilarious conversation and decided that we'd do this again tomorrow. And on Sunday, the four of us met up to watch "Big Momma's House" afterwhich we shopped, played 'couple pool' (we won of course!) and headed down for dinner before ending the day. Yes, it wasn't anything special but it felt so, cos it was spent with him. So I guess that explains it all..

At the end of the day, it's good that the both of us do understand that though it's 2 different paths that we're treading, it's the same destination we hope to reach..

P/S: Sometimes, I feel really sad that there is someone who has the potential to take over Senthil place. Not that I didn't know that. I just didn't want it to happen. Sigh...

Monday, March 06, 2006
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