prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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It's Monday and I'm seriously having the 'monday blues' symptoms which includes nausea, runny nose, loss of appetite, restlessness, allergy to notes, ignorance to schoolwork and lethargy!
Aaarrrggh! Maybe it's because I've had great fun the last 3 days that my brain's still not transited into the academic mode.

I could barely contain my excitement for "Disney on Ice' on Friday. It's my 3rd consecutive year watching it and I couldn't wait for the next one. Ratna, her little niece (aged 4), Deepa (my sis), Guna and myself reached the National Stadium at 8pm sharp, bought tidbits and settled down into our seats. The show, overall was definitely NOT up to my expectations since I've seen rather exceptional ones the years before. But hey, it was good entertainment and really, the skating skill - were excellent. So, they still get a huge thumbs up even though the storyline wasn't tt exciting. It was almost 11 plus when I reached home and I dropped flat on my bed, straight to dreamland until Guna's phonecall.

Saturday was supposed to be a very important day for both Guna & myself. Tho I hardly mentioned abt us having a bad time, the truth was, we were. For the last 2 weeks, it had been rather awkward for the both of us, our phone conversations were filled with silences which led to fewer calls, abrupt goodbyes at the end of it, unnecessary arguments and what not. I was left in a state of confusion simply because I didn't even know the reason behind the awkwardness. I thought my breakfast buying surprise and that weekend would have made up for everything else, but later I realied I was so wrong!

Now is when the phone call comes in. He called to ask if I had reached home and that's where it all started from. Suddenly, like a volcano, everything that he had kept in his heart flowed out - the fact tt he is still wasn't used to the fact that I was so busy I hardly had any time for him, every other person gets to see his gf (my friends and other male friends included) but not him, rushed phonecalls, Joe Black's decision to join me for my mandarin course and Senthil's innocent phonecalls and flirting and abt how he thought I didn't love him anymore, I was probably interested in someone else and the list went on. Whoa... now that was a shocker cos I was totally caught off guard by all the confessions. I seriously didn't know that these many things were bothering him. How ignorant, was I?

And so we spoke, and spoke and spoke till 3 am and I made sure he understood my point of view and I understood his. And we came to a compromise, quite willingly. Sigh, sometimes I feel like I've failed as a girlfriend. Why do I keep putting him at the bottom of my list even when I don't intend for that to happen? I feel that it's all got to do with my painful relationship with Senthil. After him, I don't quite dare to allow anyone come close to me emotionally, I've built a protective barrier ard me.I tell myself that I shouldn't let myself get too close to someone or else I might just get hurt like before. So I deem other things far important that my relationship but I fail to realise that in my course of selfishness, that this in itself will hurt me one day cos I'm pushing my loved one away from me in my quest to protect myself when in actualy fact, I want him close to me.

*mental note - stop being an ass! *

Saturday was THE day to make up for all lost time and to start everything afresh. And so we met up for the 'Date Movie', which was hilarious (the laughter did alot of gd, I tell you), and afterwhich, we travelled all the way down to Holland V for ice-cream at Haagen Daz, which brought abt lots of memories. Cos you see, the last time we went there was when we were platonic friends and now a year later, we come back as couple and that got us started on how we first knew each other and how things btw us blossomed to love. It was fun, taking a trip down memory lane. Those attached should try it once in awhile. Relive those times and you'll never know how much smiles and laughter it might bring you.

Just then, Guna came up with the weirdest suggestion - to take a trip down to NP and take pictures of all the spots which reminded us of US! Haha! Oh well, why not? It'd be fun and so we paid for the ice-cream and left for Ngee Ann Poly (where it all started. hahahahah). And so we started snapping the ICS room, Canteen 1, the back part of LT 73 A where he smokes discreetly with the rest of the ICS gang, Galileo Cafe where we had our first lunch after he confessed his feelings for me, the soccer field where he played soccer with the other guys and I watched with the girls, the netball court where we play netball with the ICS members in order to prepare for NUS's sports spectra and when he lent me his jersey cos my shirt was too short (hee) and so on.. Trust me, it was SOOOOO FUN! I had such a wonderful time that day, I almost lost track of time.

I was really glad that Saturday happened and we decided to make things right instead of keeping mum abt the whole things and pretending as if nothing ever happened. That wld have just worsened the situation and who knows, we might have called it quits. One thing I've learnt from the conversation on Friday night - effective communication plays a huge part in a relationship and if you don't have that, pls do something abt it. It has the power to make or break your relationship. And the other thing I learnt on Saturday? A candle light dinner at a posh restaurant, expensive gifts and materialistic dreams do not give you ultimate happiness and contentment in a relationship. It's quality time like this, which doesn't cost a single cent that's worth it all. Yes, it's nice to indulge in such treats once in awhile but to sustain in a relationship, you need much more than money. You need lots of love, laughter, smiles and quality time - all of which is absolutely F-R-E-E!

So go on people, spread your love. Haha!

Well, I wld love to go on writing but it's time for me to fight the monday blues, get my ass off my seat and to school. But don't you fret, I'll be back later on tonight to fill you up on my wonderful day on Sunday with not all but half of the Renga's Clan. Tata for now!

Monday, March 13, 2006
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