prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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08-10-05

The whole of Saturday was non-productive and I was suffering from absolute boredom. Having nothing else to do, I decided to pick on random blogs to read and that’s when I came across Sivan’s blog.

There was a little section dedicated to me - Sajeetha, I know we're both busy, but that hasn’t stopped me from constantly thinkin of you!I miss you like hell! I dunno why, but whenever I'm down, thinkin of you comforts me in a way.So thank you for that.-smile-

I was so.very.touched by that small yet very sincere message and went all quiet for a while. I was ashamed. Ashamed of myself for not being there for her when she needed me. That’s when it hit me; I’d been so absorbed in my own life, I’d neglected the feelings of others who love and need my love in return. How selfish had I been?

Sivan, no matter how busy always manages to drop me a tag or sms to show that she cares. She’s always letting me know that I’m on her mind and that she misses me. And what do I do for her? Hardly have any time for her. And it doesn’t stop with her. The list continues with Kumaran, Raj anna, Thana, Radhiyah, Diyana, Rosenna, Xia, Eunice, Shikin.. some of the important few in my life I’ve constantly failed to keep in touch with.

I’m not the only one who’s busy. These people are too, some even more than the rest yet if they’ve got the initiative to stop and think about me, why couldn’t I have done the same thing? Mere complacency? Taken for granted?

Only now do I realize that friendships, just like love need constant care, concern and lots of keeping in touch. It needs a lot of tender, loving care just like how plants need air, water and sunlight to survive. My ties with my friends and family are in a dire need for renewal, reinforcement. I’m going to be more committed and it shall start from NOW!

For those of you whom I’ve unintentionally disappeared from your life, my sincere apologies. I’m never too busy for you, really. I’m sorry for being a bad friend/cousin but within this imperfection lies a heart that treasures you perfectly. And Sivan, tom @ Dylan’s place I owe you huge hug and a kiss. I love you, little one. Heaps. I’m sorry I wasn’t there when u needed me and u had to think of me to make your worries go away. I wish I cld have done more. I promise to make it up to you…

Monday, October 10, 2005
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