prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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Realisation has hit upon me like lightning and I've realised a horrible truth. One that I had been believing wasn't all so true.

" It has always been the case of beauty over character"

No life form, or rather NO male living specie believes in making faithful, really kind and nice, forgiving, understanding girls their girlfriends as long as she doesn't posses the 'model-girlfriend' characteristics. He can have a girl who has all these and more right next to him but he'll only choose to pursue the one who doesn't give 2 hoots abt him nor his well-being, whose rude and insensitive towards his feelings, who couldn't care less if he was even alive!

How exasperating! How fucking, downright superficial?! Why is it that beauty blinds all? It's really sad to see how some really beautiful friends of mine have been left on the shelf for the only reason they weren't born as attractive as some others and how how some evil and nasty beings get all the guys they want in this lifetime for one simple reason - they're trophy like. You know what I mean, those tall, fair and attractive looking ones who don't even have the slightest bit of manners nor friendliness.. Dun get me wrong. I have gorgeous friends who are some of the most wonderful people I know and I love them to bits, I'm talking abt those with no sense of humanity and these idiots (men) can't see it! Why? Why? WHY????

U see I've got this friend, from primary sch. She's like the nearest to perfection and her name's Shant. To me, she's the most beautiful girl I've ever known, both inside and out but NO living creature has even asked her out once or has proposed to her cos she isn't really what you'd call - HOT. She's been given rude comments, shrugged off and even made fun of and that really makes me wanna strangle the living shit of those morons but the worse part of it all is that Shant starts believing that maybe those guys were right - she isn't worth their attention. I think that's the worse that can happen; to stop believing in yourself cos of some egotistical dickhead.

Sigh... why talk abt Shant when I'm exactly like her. I've been throught the same shit as well. People being nice to me only because they wanna get to know my gorgeous friend or my sister, people calling me and having conversations for the sake of getting information of their crushes and so much more. Along the way, some have confessed tt they were falling for me and those crap, but what I need to know is this - If it weren't for my gorgeous friend or hot sister, would u have even taken the chance to have known me, call me, or merely even acknowledge me presence? No, you wouldn't have. It's only after becoming "friends" that u realise tt maybe u cld be attracted to me too. Why does it have to be this way?

It hurts and YOU are doing it again. Well, u can go for all I care but when it's too late and u turn back, I might not be ard cos YOU may not be man enough for me..
You get my point, I think.

Monday, July 11, 2005
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