prologue

Name: Sajeetha
life is for living, need i say more?

*loves:
the family, him, them; my friends
anything arty farty, the literary arts, theatre
dolphins
travelling, always unfolding something new
dining in places with ambience to kill for (it's a hobby.hah)
r etail therapy
all things indian
enlightening conversations
candles
angels, fairie,pixies, gnomes, smurfs(br>

*loathes:
the one who stabs u in ur back
death of dear ones
all that flies or has wings
the complications of all types of relationships
not knowing
those who try so hard to be me

red/purple crumpler bag
new urban male jersey
new birks
that oh-so-gorgeous watch from esprit
that beautiful converse bag
a white i-pod nano
that new dgital camera which screams buy-me!
the bikini from billabong
a new pair of funky spectacles
truckloads of best-selling novels
a whole new art materials collection
a new wallet that fits the enormous card collection of mine

nady,the sweetie pie
vicky, the blur sotong
charlotte,the doctor in the making
sivanes, the smart-ass cuzzin
LV, the gorgeous pearly
sarah, the clubbing chica
sujatha, the indian actress look alike
nadia ameera, the lost pri sch mate who was found
lynette, the sports fanatic
hemma, the evil twin
vanessa, popular for all the wrong reasons

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friend: hi gal, how are you?

me: (pleasantly surprised to hear from a friend) hey, what a surprise. i'm fine, and u?

friend: i'm doing gd gal. anyway, i wanted to ask if u wld be willing to buy a donation booklet from me. it's only 10 bucks and i'm sure it's nothing to you, so cld u do me a favour? / i'm dancing for this competition, cld u gather a few friends and get tickets to support me? / hey, it's my gf or bf's birthday,can u help me design a card and make a nice present for me / it's our 1st yr aniversary, can u give me ideas on what to do etc..

me: erm, ya ok. i'll let you know abt it soon.

friend: ok, thanks gal. that's why i called.

OR

friend: hey xyz, meet my friend sajeetha.

me: hi, nice to meet you.

xyz: hello, nice to meet you too.

friend: eh, u remember i told u i had a friend whose father has a brazilian restaurant? this is the one la.

xyz: oh, this one ah? wah, he told me all abt you yada, yada, yada.

me: oh, cut the crap!
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i hate it. i hate the fact a simple call had a hidden agenda behind it. some sad cases wld include, as mentioned earlier, buying something form somebody, making something for someone's partner, borrowing my ideas, shoes, clothes, bags and what not but most of the times,when it has something to do with buying (involving money) cos apparently i was known to be the one who cld afford cos the dad works in 'the singapore mint'. oh and the disgusting ones wld be getting me to introduce some hot friend of mine or even worse, my sister. geez! and when i can't and won't comply, i'm almost as good as dead.

all my life, this was how i was treated. thankfully, not by all but by some i had deemed to be my true friends. i was important only because i cld provide or be of use to somebody or simply because my name had a status attached to it; the girl whose dad owned the popular brazilian restaurant off 6th avenue.

this brings me to my next question; if i was never the girl whose father owned a restaurant, if i was nvr the girl whose father drove a lexus, if i was nvr the girl who lived in a condo, if i was nvr the girl who had those hot friends or the pretty sister, if i was nvr the girl who lived the life that many envied, would they still then be proud to associate themselves with me for the simple fact that i was a nice girl with a good heart? would they then be friend for all that i wasn't?

my answer: i don't really know.

i remember a conversation with a friend on my birthday last year. right after his birthday greetings, he went on to ask if my father was going to get me a jet plane or a sports car as my birthday gift. i said neither and went on to say, why not since i was SO rich. at this point in time, i need to get some things straight! who in the blue world decided that i was SO rich? what do you mean by SO rich anyway? are u my personal accountant? so under what grounds do u declare that i am SO rich?! it cld have been a joke, but i was rather annoyed at the tone the msg was conveyed. these pple make it seem so easy but they had no idea and i mean, ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA just how hard my dad works to give us the best. he's certainly not one of those arses out there who simply inherit millions of dollars from their fathers or forefather, sit at home, shaking legs and clinking wine glasses while spending like a duke! he works day and night, slogs even harder than a automated machine just to pay the bills and all other expenses that comes together with living an above-average lifestyle. probably that's his idea of best so he tries with all his might to make ends meet so that he cld provide his family with only the best.

it's NOT easy and it NEVER was and neither is it going to be so don't make it seem like it is cos if it was then everyone of us out there would be living like kings and queens, won't we? but that's not the case, is it?

to all those assholes whom i refuse to buy a donation booklet from, to those misers who expect me to pay first for lunch or dinner because you hadn't withdrawn ur cash from thr atm and then conveniently forget to pay me back because you think a meagre ten or twenty dollars would not make a difference to me cos i was SO rich and when i do ask you back for the money, you call me a stingy bitch i'll personally slap your face. if it was that meagre, why don't you just pay for it then? or why don't we do that to you and see if u feel the same way still. the money's not even mine to begin with, it's my dad's, his hard earned money and it's not within my discretion to spend it as i wish . it's entirely up to him to decide on he thinks we are supposed to spend it and i reserve ALL the rights to help him save.. for those of you who have a problem, you can f*** off. i wouldn't care less.

(someone, anyone has anniyan's hotline? i need to inform him of the atrocities that's happening around me?)

you know how during spring cleaning, some of us discard our old clothes that just don't fit us well anymore, books that have turned yellowish over the years, furniture which are falling apart, things that we have grown uncomfortable or uneasy with and replace them with things that might be of better use? well,that's exactly what i've been doing. spring cleaning; discarding people whom i've become uncomfortable with, people who make me feel uneasy with their presence, those with false pretense or superficial ideas.. they have to go... i'm sure they'll be no regrets.

i spoke to dad abt my feelings on this issue. dad thinks i'm growing up and that i'm not naive as i used to be anymore. he's glad that i'm now able to spot a wolf in sheep's clothing all by myself without him having to come to my rescue all the time. as for me, i've learnt there's still so much more to learn in life and that as you grow up, you come to terms that from a huge group of friends you'll only be left with a handful but those who'll stay by your side,not for all that you are but for all that you are not.

i've learnt that the hard way.

for now, i'm contented with having my amazing family and a few loved ones by my side to help me preserve my sanity and keep my feet planted firmly to the ground..

love; sajeetha

Wednesday, January 24, 2007
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i am completely exhausted yet i feel revived. and u don't get me.
i just came back home after my first yoga and bollywood fusion dance classes, which i'm completely in love with!

anitha's friend was a fitness consultant at 'true yoga' and had given her an complimentary session to try out any of the classes available at their centre, together with a friend. and as u know, complimentary means free and anything free, we grab! haha. besides, senthil is working in 'true yoga' too but at the UOB centre while we were given complimentary passes at the outlet in pacific plaza and he too has mentioned some great yoga/dace classes being offered at his workplace. so,this was definitely something i was going to go for. recommendations had been great so far and like i mentioned earlier, it was free. i'm going to enjoy it for a day and come straight back home without being brainwashed by the consultants to become a member/sign up for a package etc.

at least, that was the plan la. when i went there, i was awed by the whole atmosphere. it was so damn posh and i loved the studios! the yoga class was so calming, i thought i had transited from earth to heaven (no joke, it's REALLY that soothing) and the bollywood fusion dance class just got me shaking my thang like i was dancing for some hindi movie. the steps were vigorous, complicated and challenging but it made mastering the art of bollywood dancing this much more fun! in less than 15 min, i was sweating like a pig and boy, did that feel good!

i was loving it! and guess what? the consultants didn't even need to coerce me into buying their package. i was already smitten by the dance teacher and his groovy moves! i was definitely signing up for this menbership. what better way to shed those kilos than dancing them off eh? the packages were all pricey though, so i had to come back home to discuss it with mum and dad, which i did. and guess what? mum's willing to 'sponsor' $159 each month just for me! she rocks! heh.

now, the next question is - whose gonna join me?! that's when i remembered how reshma and i used to sign up for stuffs like these together. i remember our 'california fitness' days and our 'amore dance aerobics' times.. money was never a problem to us as long as we were together, having fun. she was someone, i knew, who'd always be willing to go the extra mile for me and she knew i wld too. at times like this, i missed her very much. i hate the nostalgia that sweeps across me each time i think abt her, abt us and our broken friendship.

but there was thing for sure, noone cld take her place in this life-time. i have a best friend. and it can only be reshma, whether i like it or not...

Sunday, January 21, 2007
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i just read lynn's blog abt judging people and how wrong we can be. i too, have victimized many due to my pre-assumptions a time too many. most of the time, i never try and get to know their side of story/ or them before passing a judgment (which is pretty fine by me) and ostracize them upon first impressions. it never bothers me, cos i never wanted to be their friend anyway. and that was how it usually was until a few days ago. until thursday, that is.

some of my friends would know the history this particular indian girl in my lecture & i share. we go waayy back to poly days, had our fair share of arguments and bitterful verbal exchange which eventually led to a soured friendship. we weren't exactly the best of friends but friends enough to have a decent 10 min chat. but all these were thrown out of the window for some reason ( i shall not get down to the nitty-gritty details cos it'll take forever) and we've been 'enemies' ever since then. well, u cld imagine the horror when i saw her in SIM on the first day of orientation. we were in the same school, taking the same course and unfortunately, in the same class too.

3 semesters had passed with the both of us ignoring our presence in school, pretending one didn't exist and if by coincidence our eyes met or our paths crossed, we simply treated each other as invisible. life was easier that way. looking at her or even smiling brought abt too much of painful memories. until last semester, when i received an apology mail in friendster. i have to admit, i was rather taken aback at her humble gesture. after some thought, i decided to let go of my ego and reconcile with her. afterall, the person we had quarreled over was no longer existent in neither my life nor hers, thus it didn't make sense to bear grudges even after all these time.

so the last semester was spent giving polite nods of acknowledgement or subtle smiles, simple conversations over msn and that was abt all i was willing to give the friendship. i really didn't want to have anything much to do with her. besides, they say 'once bitten, twice shy'. but everything changed when we decided to meet up on thursday for lunch.

who wld have thought we'd have that much of fun together. holding a conversation was a breeze, shopping was needless to say but i swear it was the photo taking sessions that really broke the ice. i truly had fun on thursday and a part of me was glad that i actually took the step to get to know her better cos on any given normal day, i wld not have. i admit to being as stubborn as a mule and forgiveness are hardly in my dictionary but this one time, i tried and reaped fruitful results. i might just do it again.

the moral of my story? different circumstances shape a person's behaviour and actions and this might not necessarily remain the same all the time. afterall, we're humans and humans, are not perfect. so the next time you decide to be too judgmental, just give it a little thought. they might not be as bad after all, while in other cases, a person you thought was sucha a gem may prove you oh-so-wrong (recently, this has been the case in my life) and when that happens, you know what to do; STAY AWAY, STAY CLEAR OF THEIR PATHS! that's exactly what i've been doing..

Thursday, January 18, 2007
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Life sometimes gets so bogged down in the details, we forget we are living it.
There is always another appointment to be met, another bill to be paid, another symptom presenting, another uneventful day to be notched into the wooden wall..

Tuesday, January 16, 2007
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14.01.07

i've finally hit the one year mark with the boyfriend! woo-hoo! some of my friends thought for someone who had been in a 5 yr relationship, i was being overly excited over my first yr anniversary. well, that's exactly what i had thought too but when it happened,you just know that every relationship is new, every relationship is different and every relationship is entitled to its own form of joy and happiness. so is mine.

that evening was everything i had imagined it to be. for a split second, i thought i was living a fairytale, as a princess. that evening also taught me how it all makes sense when someone tells you they keep falling in love with the same old person, over and over again. i used to think it was absurd and all too syrupy and lovesick but now that i've felt it myself, i can only nod in agreement as i hear such statements.

sometimes, i've felt that my r'ship is not going anywhere and other times, where we wound up was awful and yet i wouldn't have traded those times for the world. when you don't know where you're going, you end up finding places noone else would ever think to explore. i guess that's what my r'ship is all about. i do not know if we'll make it to the marriage altar but i'm going to continue to explore..

we have synchronized our watches, studied our calenders, existed in minutes and completely forgotten to step back and see what we have accomplished - a beautiful relationship that only we can share, despite all that comes our way....

Monday, January 15, 2007
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- it's very evident isn't it? love indeed, drives one mad! heh -

Monday, January 15, 2007
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love is in the air....

Monday, January 15, 2007
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- the dinner at shangri-la; the sunflowers; the love -

Monday, January 15, 2007
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so i promised updates on the holidays but if i really do, it would stretch up to a couple of entries and i'm really not up to it so i'll summarise whatever i can; holiday was spent catching up with alot of friends over lunches and dinner, pure slacking and hanging out, meeting one or two cousins over dessert, ice-skating, rock-climbing, shopping, movies and the usual things you end up doing with friends and a week's stay at the westin in kuala lumpur with the family for pure shopping indulgence. i guess that kinda sums it all up cos i've really lost count of all that i've done during the past two months!

rest assured, pictures will be posted up. really soon, i hope.

it's been a week since school reopened. nothing much has changed, the lecture mates, they all look the same. nothing drastically or shockingly different. lectures have been a bore, none of the lecturer possess even an ounce of humour and the modules are seemingly tough. talk abt wanting to pass the last semsester's exams with flying colours. tsk, tsk. other than that school's pretty light, lessons are only thrice a week (mondays, tuesdays & wednesdays) which means i have a pretty long weekend! yay!

i have also made it a point this year to reduce my tuition commitments by half. i had 5 tuition kids and now i've only 2 and i'm ecstatic abt the amount of free time i'm gonna have but that isn't gonna be spent on social outings. the resolution is to get productive and indulge in activities that'll do me some good like yoga, salsa (yes, i'm still finding someone who'll do it with me) and other form of sports. stuff like shopping, dinner dates with friends and casual hanging out are gonna be put on hold. those are reserved only for the holidays and besides, i told myself i need to start saving up some money for the future. lavish spending is not going to be on the list for a while. so friends who are reading this entry, i'm sorry but the next time you'll be seeing me is during the next semester break. my time is going to be spent on achieving good grades in school and looking after my health and body.

the health's been on a plunge the past 3 weeks. i've been having severe breathing difficulties and have been in and out of hospitals for a good 4 times now. none of the doctors can put their finger to my diagnosis but i've been asked to lose a hefty 6-7kg before they perform any sort of scan/x-ray on me. doctors suggests it cld be due to me being over-weight (but that's entirely after mum's instigation on that point) and if the breathing condition doesn't improve even after the weight loss, then maybe something might be wrong with me. i've been scared lately, scared of dying. i know i'm paranoid but i can't help but wonder if i've got some disease that's gonna kill me. sigh. this fear is crippling me from living my life normally. i've even put gym on hold cos i'm afraid to exert any form of exhaustion on myself. argh! i need to get better!

on a brighter note, i have just sucessfully completed one of my new year resolutions. yes ladies and gentlemen, i have finally passed my driving test!!! i am a certified driver as of friday and i can never be happier. a hunt for the perfect car is in progress and before you know it, i'll be dropping you guys off to your doorsteps. i'm ecstatic!! and so proud of myself! yay! yay! yay!

with this happy note, i shall finish up this entry. gotta rush for tuition now,am so late. will update again when time permits. ta!

Monday, January 15, 2007
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and so i'm here after a long hiatus. what better way to start the new year then blogging eh? have i mentioned, that in my never-ending list of new year resolutions, prompt updating of blog entries have topped the list? haha.

first things first - happy new year everyone! here's a toast to yet another round of 365 days! cheers!

so much has happened in this holidays; lots of going out and catching up that i can't even remember most of them now but they were all worthwhile. i see that i last stopped my entry towards the last days of november. this means i have got a whole month of updating to do, which i just might but maybe not now. later, bit by bit, segmented into several entries.

the last week of november was spent rock climbing with lynette, which was an exhilarating experience if i say so myself. the surprising part abt this whole adventure was the fact that i loved it and was actually looking forward to more of such climbing sessions. i was never a sporty person tho i have been a school netballer ever since i was primary 4. that was abt the only sport i thought i was good at and had a knack for. netball gave me this adrenaline rush that no other sport had to offer and it gave me this sense of satisfaction i've nvr felt before but that too was short lived. i never continued with it in poly except for the occasional games we played during inter-class matches or for ics.

then i started growing up, and like any other teen/pre-adult i was self-concious abt my size and stopped getting myself involved in any type of sports altogether. being big, i always had to wonder what people will say abt my thighs if i wore shorts, what they'll say abt my fat arms or my bulging tummy or even my breasts when i jump. it was too torturous to even imagine. so, the easiest way out was simply to draw myself back and do what i just do best; be a normal, typical girl.

yes, there have been pangs of wanting to run, scream and play ball and win but my inferiority complex got the better of me and i quietly walked away from all that i loved. i had a low-self esteem though i had refused to admit it. who does, anyway?

but all that came to an end and got thrown away after my break-up with senthil. the break-up had caused me to lose a good 8kg without any effort on my part; i thought i ate normal and dined normal but somehow nothing seemed to stay in the body. i simply kept on losing the kilos and before i knew it, people who hardly noticed me started asking me if i had lost wieght. random aquaintances paid compliments and yes, for awhile i was concurrently seeing 4 men. well, not dating all 4 of them at the same time, but i had the choice to pick one out of the 4 in the course of getting to know them all. and none of them, i had gone after. that sure feels good.

in spite of the new found attention, nothing was allowed to get to my head. my feet was rooted firmly to the ground and i insisted, i was going to be the same old me, safeguarding the same old principles. although, the attention was overwhelming and choosing the most good looking one was at one point of time the priority, i still sat back to give it a thought and ended up choosing the one who'd been there with me throughout the times when i had been a fat, not-at-all good looking ugly duckling. the one who was attracted me even before what i was now. no prizes for guessing who though. yes, it's the very same person i am with now.

and that's when i realised that size really does not matter. it's really not abt what u are but who u were inside and that people can still love/like you regardless of the shape u came in. and this was the turning point in my life; in my outlook of the activities i got myself involved in.

this simple lesson shaped who i am now. i have, since my break up (which marks my 2nd yr, this 2007) have put on some of the weight i had shed earlier but that doesn't stop me from living my life. these days, i exercise on a regular basis, attempt to eat healthy and indulge in the finer things in life. i hit the gym, i run, i kayak, i rock-climb, i ice-skate, i bowl, i skip, i dance and none of these are done in the attempt to lose weight or look good but only because it makes me feel healthy and makes me feel good. no more low-self esteem, no more inferiority complex (yes, i admit to being a little self-concious every now and then but then again, i'm a girl and we all do allow ourselves to succumb to such thoughts every once in a while. i'm guessing that shld be fine).

if u ask me how 2006 has impacted my life, i'll tell you that it has taught me to beome a better, confident, bright young woman. and i have never been more proud. but before u think i've done it all by myself, i need to let you know that there was no way i cld have done it alone. i needed my pillars of support;

vicky - for always paying me compliments when she thinks i deserve it, for accompanying me to the gym almost every single day, for waking me up early in the morning so that i can be allowed to be dragged to macritchie for a run and for always being there as an inspiration.

lynette - for telling me that size was never a barrier to do what you love, for always being brutally honest with her opinions and views when asked, for dragging me along to some of the things i never thought i would have bothered to try (eg; kayaking, rock-climbing etc), for being the responsible one who messages everyone asking them to be in their sports attire so that we cld hop over to ngee ann poly for a run after lessons, for always taking the time and initiative in organising eventful activities for us to be involved in, for always helping us learn something new, for repeatedly telling us how much of calories we are consuming each time we eat something sinful (that cld be a pain at times though but the guilt treatment works. hah) and for teaching us to share our food. you're loved woman!

guna - for never asking me to lose weight and if i said i wanted to, for saying it should only be related to health and not something superficial like looking sexy/beautiful/pretty/etc, for always being supportive and never doubting my efforts or intentions, for loving me for who i am and not the outlook and above all, for just allowing myself to be me.

senthil - for asking me out for jogs, for advising me on how to lose weight in an efficient manner, for paying relevant compliments if slight weight loss was noticed and for being my new-found best friend. whoever said, ex boyfriends are jerks?! i guess i'm one lucky girl.

my parents - dad, for his constructive criticisms tho they hurt at times but i know he was doing it in the name of love and mum, for accompanying me to the gym, for incorporating fruits and vegetables into my diet tho i used to show faces at her for torturing me, for skipping dinner together with me so that i'll not be the only one at home starving ; i love them!

it's not like i have lost 20kg or something for me to give out sucha a speech but i believe i'm come a long way from what i was a good 2 years ago and like i mentioned earlier, i'm proud of myself. there's a long way to go, i know but the baby steps should always be encouraged, shouldn't they? so, thank you guys for helping me be who i am. couldn't have done it without you guys and for those i've not mentioned, it doesn't mean ur little advices and encouragements are not treasured. they truly are.

- muacks -

Thursday, January 04, 2007
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thursday 23.11.06

right, i met khomala for lunch on thursday. for those of you who know of my history with her wld be wondering what in the blue world i was doing with her so here's a little explanation. you know abt that idiot whom i kept complaning was trying to be me? well, she added khomala (khomi) on her friendster list as well (knowing that khomala was my friend). so when i saw her on khomi's page i sms-ed khomi to ask how she'd had known that rat. khomi called back to tell me that the rat has used my name to get herself added onto my friends list. like - hey, i guess u are sajeetha's friend. i'm know her too. anyway, u look really nice in that pic. wld u like to add me?' yep.

so khomi and i got talking abt retna the rat and the conversation then turned to our personal lives and undoubtedly guna got mentioned in the convo simply becos khomi had once had a HUGE thing for him and she had even considered them dating though i really cannot understand why guna begs to differ. oh well, let's put tt aside. anyway, eversince then khomi tho outwardly had not been a bitch to me still kinda 'spoke' abt me behind my back and of course, we have mutual friends who tell me abt it. i just never let it get to me and simply shrug it off. but i always kept my distance cos you never know when pple might just turn against you. we simply say his and byes tho sometimes she does seem a little over friendly. i guess we both know that there is some sorta unspoken animosity btw us but neither one of us ever wanted to speak up.

until that day, when i said she called to talk abt retna the rat. she started rattling on abt how she was supposed to be pissed with me cos guna chose me over her and how i dun actually need to lose any more weight since i was one of the 'BIG/FAT' people who can carry it off being like that. ok, now was that supposed to be a compliment?! anyway, she said she wanted to end this supposed rumours that pple are spreading and wanted to make things right. so obviously, i, being the nice person said yes but more because i had no plans for that day. haha.

lunch was at 'annalakshmi' and then we went to vivo city. yes, again. that place is becoming overrated these days. anyway, we went to vivocity, walked ard, had fondue at swensens and actually spoke abt stuff. just when i thought i was having fun with her, she had to say one of the unbearable thing to me - eh gal, i am actually kinda surprised that guna and u actually lasted for so long cos i was only giving you guys 5 mths and i bet u'd break up. but guess what? u're doing better than expected.

this was so hurting. i thought we were supposed to make things right btw us, so what was all these abt? argh. i really couldn't wait to go and meet teebs for dinner already. thank god i had plans reserved for the night else i really dunno what i'd do. maybe she meant it in a good way, like she was being brutally honest or something but i guess the blatancy was just too much to handle. oh well, whatever but i'm still gonna be who i am. i'm gonna ignore these crude remarks and extend my friendship since she did after all make an attempt in making things right so i shld give her that much of credit. she is my friend.

anyway, eversince thursday she has been calling me on a regular basis, and we actually have regular conversations that friends have. i hope in time, this friendship become genuine cos i hate to have enemies.

so yea, after lunch and some vivo-outing i headed to town to meet teebs. this meeting, i had been looking forward for so long.

we had like a gazillion things to catch up on and it was great talking to her. so mcuh of our lives have changed and ironically we were both in the same boat now and it was comforting to talk to someone who knew just what i was gg thru cos they had the right things to say. teebs was also like tt. before we knew it, the time was 11 and i had surpassed my curfew so we put our conversation on hold and told ourself that we'll meet again either next week or the week after next. hopefully, that'll work out cos we're both equally as busy as bees! hah.

friday 24.11.06

friday was quite a lazy day. i didn't make any plans and instead went over to anitha's place to just hang out with her. that girl is flying off to india next week so i went over to help her pack her stuff and with some other documents and papers she needed help in. apparently, she's going on a trip to help build orphanage and library for the poor kids in bangalore, india. it's a trip organised by the NIE's indian society (i think) and outsiders were also allowed to join in the trip. i was asked but i highly guessed that dad won't be all too happy abt it and subconciously i knew he was going to say 'no' so why bother asking even.

so friday was spent at her place and back home. well, i need all the rest anyway. too much of going out is tiring me out. hehe.

saturday 25.11.06

i was not supposed to have any plans on saturday but wicky boy called me out to watch a movie at the last movie. nisha and teebs were also coming along so i guess it wld be quite alright. we were supposed to catch 'dhoom 2' but the tickets were sold out and we had no choice but to settle for 'happy feet'. argh! both wicky boy and i really didn't wanna watch it but teebs and nisha were adamant that it's gonna be good so we reluctantly dragged ourselves and settled for 'happy feet'. see, i'm not really a cartoon type of person. i just don't like watching cartoons in theatres but i guess that movie was alright la. the penguins were quite cute actually. after the movie we had dinner at swensens and sorta had a belated birthday treat for wicky boy. i'm actually trying to upload pictures into my blog but the damn thing isn't working so until i get that fixed you'll probably be only seeing entries, entries and more entries.

sunday 26.11.06

i went for 'dhool' recording. for the benefits of my non-indian friends, 'dhool' is a mega indian dance competition held in conjunction with vasantham central, our tamil channel. yes, and since kamini was back in singapore and her brother had extra tickets i decided to go watch the recording for the first quarters with mum, sis, kamini, fabian, kumar and another one of their friends. i'm guessing it's gonna be telecasted on tv on the 17th so those of you who wanna catch the first episode, now you know when.

being there, in the crowd and watching the groups trying so hard to impress both the judges and audience with their creative dance steps, vibrant costumes and well thought theme/concept brought abt alot of memories. i was feeling a little nostalgic even. exactly 3 years i was in the same position as those who were then on stage, all clad in 'self-designed' costumes, trying very hard not to forget the dance steps and plastering a smile on the face just to look appealing on tv. gosh, those were some of the best moments in my life and now, 3 years later here i was as a audience instead of a performer, watching my juniors do their thing.

sometimes, i wish i was still young. wishful thinking on my part, i know. oh well, it's abt time i start embracing the present and live it to the fullest. i'm not there yet but i know i will be. it just takes time.

so that's how i spent sunday.

these are the updates for the 3rd week of november. technically, as i'm typing this entry it's alread the third day of december so i'm actually going to have to have another entry describing my last week of december but i'm going to save that for a rainy day. till then, happy holidays ya'll!

Monday, December 04, 2006
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